Welcome here! This blog is an “extra blog” being posted daily between January 13 and February 3 to come alongside the 21 Days of Prayer. We are reading the book of John with the intention of looking at Jesus very closely. We want to know Him really well so that we will love Him even more!
January 29, 2019
Good morning Jesus,
Slept in. An intense but beautiful weekend at the Set Free/Church Renewal experience in Steinbach at Southland Church. A long day of meetings and then flights home yesterday. My heart is full. I have much to process and I so identify with John 16 today and Your words to me here.
“I have much more to say to you…” (vs 12)
Isn’t this the truth?
I am 50 and what I don’t know is so much more than I know. This is a thing I struggle to explain to those who are new to faith and feeling awkward in their new expressions of faith. I actually feel the same way they do, only with the new things I am learning. This is why not one of us are “masters” in being disciples. We may have walked the first steps of faith a long time ago, but there are new steps all the time. So none of us can boast in this. We are all just students of Jesus.
Yes, students of Jesus, coming near to You again and again to learn.
“I have much more to say to you, more than you can now bear…”
I can attest to this. Even this weekend, I found myself looking back on my life and asking, “Why didn’t I know this?” And by know, I mean, know in a practical, outworking way. Why didn’t I have this in my toolbelt a long time ago. Jesus you often said, “It isn’t the time…” and I think this can mean many things for me.
It isn’t the time, because I am not ready to receive it.
It isn’t the time, because I don’t have the proper foundation or experience yet.
It isn’t the time because I am still putting things ahead of you so it won’t be useful anyway.
It isn’t the time because I am in a place of deafness (ugh, GOD help me!)
Or maybe it isn’t the time, and I have no idea why, but You do.
Your timing is perfect and I trust that yet I am sorry for when my lack of obedience has slowed the process. I know it has.
“I have much more to say to you, more than you can now bear. But when He the Spirit of truth comes, He will guide you into ALL truth. He will not speak on His own; He will speak only what He hears, and He will tell you what is yet to come. He will bring glory to Me by taking from what is Mine and making it known to you…” (v. 12-14)
So I today sit down, Your student, and ask You to guide me into ALL truth. Not just some, ALL.
An old Keith Green (October 21, 1953 – July 28, 1982) song just popped into my head, so appropriate. He was a man with such a passion for this.
Make my life a prayer to you
I wanna do what you want me to
No empty words and no white lies
No token prayers no compromise
I wanna shine the light you gave
Through your son you sent to save us
From ourselves and our despair
It comforts me to know you're really there
Well I wanna thank you now
For being patient with me
Oh it's so hard to see
When my eyes are on me
I guess I'll have to trust
And just believe what you say
Oh you're coming again
Coming to take me away
I wanna “die” and let you give
Your life to me so I might live
And share the hope you gave me
The love that set me free
I wanna tell the world out there
You're not some fable or fairy tale
That I've made up inside my head
You're God the Son and you’ve risen from the dead
Thanks for the things You spoke to me this weekend. So refreshing, so convicting, so calling…all the things You do as my most honest friend, telling me ALL the truth.
I am feeling so loved by You today and so aware of Your “walking with” me all these 50 years. You noticed me way back then– that little blonde kid, that little girl and You loved me. You introduced Yourself and we have been friends all the years since. You have mentored me like no other; this has hit me with such a wave of wonder and gratitude. I feel so deeply thankful today to You for sending Your Spirit to me and calling my name.
I can hardly wait to see You and thank You face to face, but for now, may my life COME ALIVE as a prayer to You.