Day 17/21: Did I Hear My Name?

Welcome here! This blog is an “extra blog” being posted daily between January 13 and February 3 to come alongside the 21 Days of Prayer. We are reading the book of John with the intention of looking at Jesus very closely. We want to know Him really well so that we will love Him even more!

January 30, 2019

Good morning Jesus,

Today as I read John 17 I am thinking about how beautiful it is to think of You praying for me. And You still talk about me all the time. Romans 8:34 says,

“Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died--more than that, who was raised to life--is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.”

You sit “at the right hand of GOD” -- a beautiful image of the back and forth conversation about Me. You are my advocate because I am Your daughter and out of your love and concern for me, You talk about me this way. I don’t know all the things You are saying, but I know they are all for what is best. Not only do You talk about me, but You talk about others (a model for me to follow – pray for yourself, pray for others). And not only do You talk about others, You pass names on to me to pray for also.

You call me to join You in prayer. Cool thought.

“My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message.”

There are 26 verses in this prayer and I look forward to really sitting with this someday. For now though, I am just revelling in the personal attention of Your prayer. What an amazing amount of grace this is because…who am I that You would pray for me? Haven’t You done enough? Do I still occupy so much of Your time? Yes, it appears I do.

You love me that much.

An interesting question was asked at the end of the weekend I was just at. We were asked to ask You, “What do You like about me?” or “What do You see when You look at me?”

This question makes some squirm. Really, you are going to ask the GOD of the universe this? Isn’t that a bit trivial and…childish?

Yup.

Do we really need to hear that?

Nope. But what a delightfully unsophisticated question to ask one’s dad.  Don’t we want to know the little things our parents notice in us and affirm?

It’s a perfectly lovely question that’s a bit embarrassing to ask, requires quite a lot of vulnerability to ask it, and therefore is just the kind of question Jesus loves.

Jesus, You were so immediate with me. Kind of wrestling with whether I should write them here on this public blog but I will include 2 things. I heard Your Spirit say

1.     “ You are a servant” and then You said immediately, “don’t put other words alongside.” This was a very personal word to me because my tendency is to qualify complements or add on an instruction: “You are a servant, great, and here is how you can improve.” Or “You are a servant, a little shaky but I love you anyway.” These are words I would say. But Jesus I felt Your approval over me just being Your servant and the heart and obedience to “be that” is enough.

2.     “I love that you want to be with Me, not just now but you are imagining heaven. I am excited to show you around.” That one got me right in the heart. As You know, over the past few years I was really challenged about “looking forward” to heaven and being with You. People used to ache for this. At the end of Revelation when John says, “Come Lord Jesus” I was very impacted and asked myself, “Am I eager for Jesus and to be with Him?” Since then, I have written a lot in my private journals of looking forward to being in that new experience with You. It is in my thoughts often as a longing. It really touched me that this has been noticed by You…ya, that one really got me.

So now I am picturing You still, Father and Son and talking about me. You always talk about me! This is going on behind my back all the time. My ears are burning… :) And then I show up to talk with You and You love it.

Teach me to pray…keep inviting me over to talk, to confess my sin. Keep releasing me from traps and ties, keep freeing me up. Show me how to hear Your words clearly as I seek You. Keep showing me Your heart for people and needs and the work of Your Kingdom.

I Love You! Thank You for drawing me into this relationship with You. You made me and You talked about your love for me and You called Me to know You, that is the order in how it went. You showed me who I was but with hope in Your voice, showing me that You had made all the arrangements for me to be adopted by You. Even though in this life I sin, You dealt with the bigger condition of sin for me and now see me…clean. So now there is nothing that divides us and every day is a day to COME ALIVE in Your Spirit.

Yay!

T